I went through one of the biggest changes + transitions of my life last year, and I know that leaving my job - where I was unhappy + in a constant state of stress - was the best…no make that second-best decision {next to marrying my husband of course <3} that I’ve ever made.  I know that having the courage to leave that job was 100% what was needed for my life and my well-being.  I know that decision felt, and still feels aligned, yet at the same time it’s really f*cking hard.  Harder than I ever expected or anticipated.  

I’ve had moments, full days, even weeks, where I felt not good enough and doubting if this entrepreneurship gig is going to work for me.  The doubt sneaks in and the little gremlins in my head start telling me “you’ll never make enough money working for yourself.”  “You should just look for another job already.” “Everyone thinks you’re a joke.”   That thought, the thought of going back to working for someone else + having someone else tell me what to do, how to do it, and dictating my schedule + time, literally makes me feel like I can’t breathe.  Yet, I can’t seem to kick those “what if” thoughts.  I try to keep them hidden away, deep down…and for what?  I know that as long as I keep those doors open and feed those ideas of “if this doesn’t work out then I can always fall back on Plan B or plan C”, I will never be 100% all-in to my own business and give it all I’ve got.  I know I need to give it EVERYTHING!   And at the same time, we need money to support ourselves + our family and building a business…building a brand, takes time.  I’m so fortunate that we are in a place financially to where I was able to take this time and rest, think, figure things out, plan, strategize, you name it.  I don’t want to rush this process…or even worse, begin to resent it or even give up on it because I didn’t grow/build fast enough.

I now see so clearly that it doesn’t have to be only one or the other…this or that.  It can be whatever I need it to be.  I will do what is best for me + for my family.  And I know, without a doubt that either way, I’m putting all my energy, all my heart, all my soul into building my brand, building my business, and building my family.

So here I am, putting myself out there, as scary as it is, to go after what I want for my life.  To strive for complete freedom: financial abundance + freedom, freedom of my time + space, freedom to choose, and freedom to do the things that light me up and the things that I love most.  That’s what I know for a fact I get the privilege of doing with this new business venture.  I don’t have a fancy name, or clever title, it’s simply and what I offer are services that I’m most passionate about: coaching, meditation + essential oils.

I love getting connected + building relationships with people.  I love listening {and really listening…the kind of listening that hears the un-said, what’s hiding below the surface}, asking questions and supporting people in their lives.  I love sharing a mindfulness practice…and mostly because I don’t know what I would do without my own.  It saves me, grounds me, and guides me, every single day.  I love sharing that mindfulness + meditation doesn’t have to be you sitting on a cushion in the dark + quiet for an hour every day.  It definitely can look like that - if that’s what works for you, but it certainly doesn’t have to.  I love being able to share essential oils and products that are chemical free, toxin free, plant-based and straight from the earth.  I know they will make an impact in people’s lives because they’ve made such an impact in mine.  I want to share with as many people as possible because I feel like that’s my purpose and that’s why am here…to share my passion for leading, training, teaching, collaborating, connecting.  

I believe in this work.  And I also want you all to know that this road is not always glamorous, and it certainly isn’t easy.  Even on my worst days, my lowest days…it is so worth it.  It is worth every struggle, every challenge, every rejection, because it’s all teaching me.  The fear creeps in.  The “I’m not good enough” creeps in.  Most of the time I’ve been so confident and certain about the decision to leave my previous job and do my own thing, that the fear and the doubt doesn’t get to me, but these past few weeks, I have to tell you, it’s been getting to me.  What did I do about it?  I chose to do the things that I needed to do…the practices I have that support me in working through the fear + doubt.  I got into action to snap myself out of the funk and get back to myself, back to doing what I love {with a few very human moments when I said to hell with all these tools! ha}.

I pulled out my oils.  I sat and meditated.  And then I decided to get outside, get into nature and move my body by taking a walk to just think.  I am choosing to work through the doubt, in nature because nature + moving my body always bring me back down to earth + always puts things into perspective and reminds me who I really am and allows me to get out of my head and back in my body.   The oils, the meditation, the movement, the nature, all helped me to really get clear and grounded.  I know that consistency is so important with this practice and being able to tap in, to tune in every day is what’s going to keep me moving forward and keep me making tiny actions and taking tiny steps forward.  Accepting that sometimes the actions will be small and being okay with the fact that I won’t get to where I want to be overnight is half the battle.  Having the patience to trust that if I focus on 3 to 4 actions every single day that are aligned with my purpose, I will be happy, and I will be successful.  And not judging myself when I don’t make time for these practices is also a key piece of the puzzle and what makes it all work for me.  Because the truth is, there are times when I don’t…and I can fill in any excuse in the book as to why: busy, something came up, this person needed me, my dog, emails, and the list goes on and on.  When this happens, I simply come back to my breath.

When I meditate, when I use my oils, when I move by body, I always come back to being of service.  I’m here to serve.  I want to share because I want to help people.  I want to help people remove toxins + chemicals from their homes.  I want to support people in becoming knowledgeable about the products that they use on their skin - the largest organ in your body…because what we are absorbing into our skin and what we are inhaling through our lungs matters.  They really matter!  The products that I’ve been using through dōTERRA not only work and are incredibly effective…they’re also safe for you and your entire family. That’s the difference maker.   There are a lot of products out there that may get you results…but at what cost?  What ingredients are in these products?  And do we know what they are actually doing to our body and our environment? I want to spread this message. I want to shout it from the rooftops.   And this is me in my own way shouting it from the rooftops.  There are safe, natural options out there.  Let me help.  Let me serve. 

I’m scared out of my mind, but I’m also excited at the possibilities of what I can create… knowing that it’s totally in my control.  I believe in this work, and it’s in complete alignment with my purpose.  It feels so freaking good and so powerful to step into alignment, power, and truth.  And going back to the patience piece I mentioned earlier…this is a practice.  A daily practice.  And the more I learn and grow through my journey, the more I want to also help other people get clear and get aligned.  It doesn’t mean it’s going to be easy.  It doesn’t mean that the heavens will open up and light is going to shine down {and maybe in some cases it will!}.  It doesn’t mean it’s going to be complete magic all the time. It may be hard at times.  It’s going to take effort, focus + work.  And as long as you are in the work, making small actions every single day, believing in yourself and your work, it can be done and you can get to the point where you’re in complete alignment, loving what you’re doing and loving your life.  I will be with you, supporting you, encouraging you, holding you {and myself} accountable, and in this work with you, every single step of the way.

So, what do you say?  Let’s get clear.  Aligned.  In action.  Together.